May dalawang magkapatid, babae ang panganay, lalake and bunso, si babae matigas ang ulo, suwail pero mabait sa kapatid, lagi nitong binibigyan ng pera ang bunso, dumating ang araw at pareho na silang may pamilya, si ate may tatlong anak, si bunso may isang anak, si ate ay sobrang hirap dahil ang asawa ay jobless, si bunso medyo nakaka angat dahil call center agent and my work and wife, since dalawa lang silang magkapatid, every salary ni bunso, nanghihingi na konting pera si ate kahit pambili ng tubig halagang 50 Pesos, si bunso naman, bago magbigay, ang dami pang sinasabi. Lumipas ang mahabang panahon at dumating ang araw na si bunso naman ang naghirap, hindi alam ni bunso ang gagawin dahil hindi sya sanay sa hirap tulad ng ate nya, hindi pinaalam ni bunso ang sitwasyon nya sa ate nya kayat ng malaman ni ate na ganun nga ang kalagayan ni bunso tinanong nya kung bakit hindi nito sinabi kay ate ang dahilan, ang sabi ni bunso, “bakit wala ka naman magagawa or maibibigay sakin diba? wala nga kayong makain ng pamilya mo e”, sinabi ni ate, “heto ang bank book, lahat ng binigay mo ay inipon ko para sayo dahil alam ko, sa style ng pamumuhay mo nuon, wala ka man lang inipon para sa ganitong sitwasyon, kayat kahit anong sakit ng mga sinasabi mo kapag nanghihingi ako sayo, binabalewala ko kasi gusto ko, kahit pareho na tayo may pamilya, nandito pa rin ako bilang ate mo… Inspiring that I really cant resist copying it from the source. Thanks Keano143@yahoo.com aka Tim!

I was trying to find my luck to a certain guy for this year... well at least this date comes once in a blue moon... It wasn't my first time though to initiate but I was feeling a bit weird, and shameful. ha ha ha


I woke up early, rolling back and forth on my bed and finally open up my laptop and talk to my Mom and Dad and Ate Bhing. Ate Marie was buzzing me but I didn't respond as I was planning my 11.11.11 proposal. ha-ha


I was blocked by the question of what would I wanna do. Because the plan was just to spend some time with him on a certain day I don't know what to say. And the answer on my proposal was NO. Well not in words...just in action.


Quoc was asked by me to go to Square Market which was open today between 9-7pm and is located at King Street East at Jarvis Street and after waiting for him for hours outside, on a freezing cold sorroundings, I ended up on my bed. HU HU HU


I was disappointed, So in conclusion, I will try not to do stupid things like that again. Quoc thank you for declining. As the year comes to be unforgettable alone... so are you.


Marygin please pinch yourself and be smart. arghhhh

A Glass of Milk by Author Unknown One day, a poor boy who was selling goods from door to door to pay his way through school, found he had only one thin dime left, and he was hungry. He decided he would ask for a meal at the next house. However, he lost his nerve when a lovely young woman opened the door. Instead of a meal he asked for a drink of water. She thought he looked hungry so brought him a large glass of milk. He drank it slowly, and then asked, "How much do I owe you?" "You don't owe me anything," she replied. "Mother has taught us never to accept pay for a kindness." He said..... "Then I thank you from my heart." As Howard Kelly left that house, he not only felt stronger physically, but his faith in God and man was strong also. He had been ready to give up and quit. Year's later that young woman became critically ill. The local doctors were baffled. They finally sent her to the big city, where they called in specialists to study her rare disease. Dr. Howard Kelly was called in for the consultation. When he heard the nameof the town she came from, a strange light filled his eyes. Immediately he rose and went down the hall of the hospital to her room. Dressed in his doctor's gown he went in to see her. He recognized her at once. He went back to the consultation room determined to do his best to save her life. From that day he gave special attention to the case. After a long struggle, the battle was won. Dr. Kelly requested the business office to pass the final bill to him for approval. He looked at it, then wrote something on the edge and the bill was sent to her room. She feared to open it, for she was sure it would take the rest of her life to pay for it all. Finally she looked, and something caught her attention on the side of the bill. She read these words..... "" (Signed) Dr. Howard Kelly Tears of joy flooded her eyes as her happy heart prayed: "Thank You, God, that Your love has spread abroad through human hearts and hands."

(a funny story with sense) A big city lawyer went duck hunting. He shot and dropped a bird, but it fell into a farmer's field on the other side of a fence. As the lawyer climbed over the fence, an elderly farmer drove up on his tractor and asked the lawyer what he was doing. The lawyer responded, "I shot a duck and it fell into this field, and now I'm going to retrieve it." The old farmer replied. "This is my property, and you're not coming over here." The indignant lawyer replied. "I'm one of the best trial lawyers around, and if you don't let me get that duck, I'll sue you and take everything that you own. The old farmer smiled and said, "Apparently, you don't know how we do things in these parts. We settle small disagreements like this, with the Three Kick Rule." The lawyer asked, "What is the Three Kick Rule?" The farmer replied, "Well, first I kick you three times and then you kick me three times, and so on, back and forth until someone gives up." The lawyer quickly thought about the proposed contest and decided that he could easily take the old codger. He agreed to abide by the local custom. The old farmer slowly gets down from the tractor and walked up to the city fella. His first kick planted the toe of his heavy work boot into the lawyer's groin, which dropped him to his knees. His second kick nearly ripped the nose off his face. The lawyer was flat on his belly, when the farmer's third kick to a kidney nearly causing him to give up, but didn't. The lawyer summoned every bit of his will and managed to get to his feet and said, "Okay, now it's my turn." The old farmer smiled and said, "Nahh, I give up, You can keep the duck!" -------------------------------------------------------------------- LESSON: Being good at one thing does not mean that you'll be good in all things and that thinking that you are better than others can cause you to underestimate them.

This day off are really planned to be in bed. Listening to music, singing with some vedioke and maybe learning some new songs, whatever, just a matter of resting

Last Wednesday Dorie undergo Gall Bladder surgery and I was there to mess her up... LOL. I know it's a serious thing and I don't wanna be serious. The only thing that took our time there was waiting, even her recovery doesn't take that long.

The second day she thinks she could walk, but she don't even know that she can only walk for 5 meters. LOL. And then the 3rd day, here she goes, she pamper herself with the foot massage with a pedicure and eyebrow waxing. LOL.

So far, things are fine. As I slept too much, I got too much dreams too from poop to food and from vacation to work.

Wait! I still have to send my monthly remittance...and I am still lazy, grrrr... But I have to! Kaya no choice! See you again, thanks for having you! Ciao.

Never got any interest of writing something today... But here I am. Its been months since I last wrote something in here and a very low signal makes me think of my online diary.

I was doing ok in the past few days. Been happy and inspired. And I still am. Nothing much to complain but got a thousand reasons to smile. Ahhhhh how I wish I am always like this.

Got my US ViSA last August 19... my brother Angelo's 32nd birthday. So happy!

Family is doing ok, my mom is trying to save some for the rainy days which is very good to know. Ate Bhing told me that she'll gonna pay my brothers monthly allowance till he finish High School which is less worry on my side and Yeah everything is pretty good. My sister is in good mood too... wonderful!

I was looking forward to see New York one of these days, very excited. Thinking of it makes my heart beats faster.... Who in the world will gonna tell me that I will have a chance to be there? Not even myself. It is one of my wildest dreams, and you know what? That gives me a reason not to doubt myself in anyway. Now I can prove to myself that I can do anything and everything... and it is a great feelings.

Been inspired lately for having and seeing Quoc happy again. I think I passed the time that he's mad at me for the reasons I don't know, and those doesn't even bother me anymore. I hope these things wont last, I hope he will be happy all his life and thats what matters to me. He needs to be happy for me to be happy... Thank you Quoc, I will always treasure you and all the things that I got from you... I will always remember that once in my life I got a handsome guy that bothers and thinks of me, bringing me chocolates and cherries to name a few.... I am so happy and so lucky to have you and I will always thanks God for the chance of knowing you...

Thank you God for everything. Thank you for all the people around me. Thank you for all the friends I have, thank you for my family, and thank you, thank you, thank you for each and everyday of my life. and to whoever is reading this, thanks for having you all.

Thanks for making me stay with you for one year....ah i forgot, i still need 2 more weeks to be exact.

I feel so bad that we are not in good condition now and I admit it makes me very very sad. I miss the real you, the smile you gave when I see you, the excitement I see from you after work, the problematic look in your eyes when you didn't fix something from work.

I really do missed a lot of things from you. I know you have a wide space in my heart and a person I really care about, now that you are mad at me makes me restless. But hey! on the other side you help me a lot because I lost weight without even going to the process of any dieting.... but am not happy. I would rather be overweight and have you around happy than me having a perfect fit/weight but having you close to a distance and fells like even further than miles.

You seem so close Quoc but cannot be reach! and I hate it! You drive me nuts! I hope one day I will find the reason of you being mad at me. Please Quoc... let me know! Please?

I am having hard time with work. Its not exactly the work but the situation at work. When I started trusting someone and that someone breaks my trust, it wasn't a nice feeling.

I am working with someone with a very low self esteem....I think much much lower than mine that she often ended up throwing accusation to people around her. When those consecutive days that she accused me every morning, I really really feel bad. To the point that I was trembling of anger and to the point that I started and finalized hating her.

That situation makes me feel weird and drives me crazy. I am trying to forgive and open up and forget all about it but it always ends up the same. Argh I really need to drop the problem and move on. I need some change, I got enough thinking! Give me a break!

I know I wasn't that bad... but with her, I really am. I almost lost my concern about her, almost everything to the point that I don't feel like being around her. At first I did open my heart to her and even considering her to be a close friend or a sister but grrrrr not anymore. Not at this time or neither next time or anytime in the future. I know she don't like me as much as I don't like her but who cares?

It's bad when you feel like these to other people, I know. It wasn't nice but you know sometimes other people tend to develop that feelings in you.

I don't want to suffer from heart failure in the future becoming her friend. I know that she'll be good for today and the next day but after a while she will come to her true self again. For now I would rather keep my distance to be safe from any harm. I need to be careful for myself...I still have my family that depends on me.

Its better to be alone than to have a bad companion they say, now I think suits me. She is not bad but she can make me feel bad, so I surrender. May they let me live alone... that they tried and may they give me the distance and silence that I need. I am just a normal person that makes mistake. Well, I can forgive and forget I know. When the right time and the situation settle down.

For now... I will just do my work to the best that I could. I will try to get myself away from worries. I will try to forget things that makes me feel the way I am feeling now. I wish I could do whats supposed to be done. I hope my values stay even though I am living in a tough world.

Oh God... Sorry for disappointing you... But I will at least try again to be good. I hope I could. Please help me. I'm down. Please raise me up!

Feeling low this whole weekend and I wonder why. Maybe I really need some rest and bunch of thinking. I don't know why I'm feeling this way. I dont feel like talking to someone about something, I just wanna be alone. I know time was running so fast but I wanted it to run even faster... I don't have any reason for that, I just want it to happen. Arghhh Marygin Cheer Up! There is wonderful life ahead of you. Stay focus and Enjoy the present coz you'll never know what tomorrow would bring. Stop complaining... keep in mind so many people out there are suffering... You are lucky and blessed. Instead of complaining, learn how to say thank you in everything you have and in anything that happens to you no matter how bad or good it is. ..... And don't forget to pray, pray and pray so you'll never grow weary! Mama Mia here I go talking to myself again! LOLz thanks for having you to share my life with! God bless!

My co staff sucks. She is not fun to be around... I hate her in almost everything she say or do... she is nasty. Grrr I should have had so many complaints about her but I will just let her rest in peace, for now LOL. Thats funny. I love the clients though. They make me feel good about myself and help me be confident. They are fun to be around and I got wonderful time talking to them... with them I can always be myself. I love Quoc most of all. We got different views about some things sometimes but he is still fun to talk to. I love his eyes and his smile, it draws inspiration in me. There is something in him that makes him very special. (wonder what it is).LOL Played chess with Aaron, Gosh I almost win over him... more learnings and awareness on my part... Its challenging though and I enjoy the game. Mr. Thomas gave me 20 bucks for cooking him shake en bake. He said it was tasty and he almost couldn't believe that I personally cooked it. Hmmm Lovely! I bet at this hour though he would realize how expensive that chicken is. ha-ha All in all I got a wonderful day. Thanks for having you to share it with. Kudos!